There are circumstances in my life that devastate me. Some of them shatter my heart and my world. I’m not talking about major catastrophes like death, job lose, etc. I’m talking more of things that happen to us on a regular basis that seem to cut through to deeper wounds.

If you’ve ever overreacted to a simple argument or felt like your life was over because an unexpected event happened at work, then you know what I’m talking about. It’s normal to do the above on occasion, but when you find yourself always in the same pattern and feeling run down most of the time then you have a problem. I know I struggle a lot in this area.

I’ve experienced rejection, abuse, and a lot of unfairness in my life. Even though I dealt with my past hurts, things happen in the present that trigger some of these emotions and all the hurt comes back. I find myself feeling out of control and physically, mentally, and emotionally exhausted and distraught.

Why? Where’s God? Does he care? Self pity, anger, and frustration become my companions. I feel like I’ve been down this path before. I feel like I’ll never learn to master difficulties.

But what if I’m wrong? What if God does hear every cry for help? What if he is working behind the scenes making my path straight? What if my perception of things and my negative attitude are the cause of my distress? What if this is what’s holding me back from experiencing gods blessings and joy?