Where’s the glory in what we set out to accomplish for Christ?

Sometimes it seems that we don’t get too far in our faith when life doesn’t go according to our desires. I’m full of ideas that I think god put in my head and yet when I proceed with them, life has a way of knocking me down and the enemy tries to deceive me. Sometimes I wonder if god is really there and does he care about my life or the life of the people I encounter.

It’s so easy to forget to walk by faith and not by sight. Our human eyes wait and search for miracles. We follow ideas and prompts that we feel are from god and we hope the end result is good. But what if it isn’t? What if things get worse and you don’t see god’s glory?

Heartaches, the storms of life, bad news, and every day stressors can sometimes get the best of us. What are we to do? Where are we to go when it feels like God himself has turned from us?

It’s taking me a lot of tears and patience to learn from such experiences. I want so much to believe that God is faithful. I want to feel his love and witness his promises in my life.

Even though God has helped me in the past and proved that he never forgot me on numerous occasions, all my beliefs go out the window when new trials arrive. I forget I’m his beloved. I forget that he is the faithful god who never changes. I forget that his plan for my life is always better than mine.

Why is it that we are so short sighted and full of doubt? Why can’t my previous experiences with Jesus be sufficient for any challenge that comes my way? Why do I recognize his hand of mercy years later after I no longer have that particular problem? Why can’t I see how he is helping me now?

When I face a new challenge, I look around at how bad things are going in other people’s lives and it makes me doubt that god will help me or work things out for my good. I start telling myself that my situation will have a negative result or things will never get better for me. The worst thing is to feel that your circumstances will never change and they might get worse. These thoughts are all lies but they tend to be very convincing

Life is hard so there’s no need for me to be harder on myself by thinking wrong thoughts. I have the mind of Christ in me. I can choose to believe a thought that is full of truth or I can believe thoughts that are lies.

I’m learning that if I continue to pray and seek god, things do change. That change may be a very slow and agonizing one or it could be a quick one. Sometimes god answers my prayers right away, especially with the small requests. Other times, he takes his time and shows me only glimpse of hope in a difficult situation. All in all change does happen. I think god allows us to go through the valley to grow and be made perfect in him. As we walk in doubt he is watching us and leading us to a better place. My job is to seek him with all my heart and never give up!